It's almost a year since I wrote a post in here. I've come to realize a lot of things since then, and yet I'm still just a childish little girl, away in her own world.
I don't feel sad right now, but I don't feel happy either. I just feel bored and unliving.

There. ( has put some music on )

I'm hoping to get visited by 3 of my friends the next weekends, and I hope that my hair is going to grow faster. I hope that the icecream I just ate isn't going to make me fat.

I hope my interrests are going to change. This way, I can have nothing I long for.

School was boring today. The day was very long, and I was kind of alone all day, because most of my class was out cheering for our soccer-team. I didn't want to sit out in the cold rain while looking at some boys, which I don't know, play soccer. I've spent about 8 years in this school, and yet I don't know anybody for real. I have a few friends here, but noone who takes my side or sticks with me. If only I lived in a bigger city, then people wouldn't stare at me whenever I walk by. Through all my childhood, I've been teased and called ugly, because I was different. Today I stand proudly, because I believe everyone is entitled to their own personal style, and noone should be rejected for what they believe, look like, are interrested in or feel.

I wanna get married to a millionair. A beautiful man, about 10 years older than myself, who doesn't believe in anything but me. By beautiful, I mean really beautiful, like feminine. Androgyny isn't that baaad~... ( smirk ) It wouldn't quuite be a bad thing if he was japanese..

But then again - Who would want to get married to me? ( frown )